StrangersNotAllowed

Okay. So I totally failed in keeping a daily journal for myself. It's not that I am too busy. Heck, I just spend my days sleeping, surfing the internet and yes, bumming. I guess I am just too lazy to write a journal.

So then, I finally gave up. I realized it will be totally impossible for me to keep a daily journal because 1.) it is so tedious 2.) i am lazy.

And then I saw a friend posting a weekly blog and I told myself, yeah, perhaps I can try to do that. SO here I am. Trying to fulfill that plan. Trying to write a weekly blog about my weekly activities and feelings. I just need something or some way to vent out all of these pent up emotions inside of me and perhaps, preserve some of the memories because honestly, my memory is a little bad.

For the past weeks, I have been staying at home, trying as much as possible to forget my old life. I hated it. Actually hated it. Ultimately hated it. It made me realize that friends truly come and go but real friends stay no matter what. All throughout my life, I only had one real friend who stayed beside me no matter what. No matter how much life sucked, no matter how much I turned out to be a failure. She stayed...

And now she is undergoing the worst time of her life, what with all the unexpected dilemmas that has come her way. People around her are disappointing her and life just doesn't go the way she planned. I actually want to do something to make her feel okay...to somehow ease the burden...to tell her that life will still go on no matter what and she can get through it because she is a strong person..a strong woman.

Sometimes, it's just hard to understand why life is unfair. Sometimes you can't help but just sit in the corner and wonder where it or what when wrong. But then you will come to the realization that life will make a jackass out of ourselves and there's nothing that we can really do about it. It is not a matter of who made the wrong call or what stupid mistake we have committed, life will always happen and we cannot control it. It is cold hearted. It is unfair. It is..LIFE. The trick is how to deal with it. The trick is how to rise up to the occasion and tell Life to fuck up because you are a lot tougher than it.

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